halliganprince arlo rattray 🔧 prescottDate: 2024-11-25 10:46 pm (UTC)
that's what i want. like i even invited the guy when i still thought y'all WERE fuckin around, i ain't trying to get in the way of anything???. we even been over the whole "that's why i don't sleep in the bunkhouse" deal. i'm trying to do stuff right, sorry if my vibes were off when i wasn't totally comfortable but i can't act how you want at folks you never mentioned cause of stuff we never talked about in the first place
halliganprince arlo rattray 🔧 prescottDate: 2024-11-26 12:49 am (UTC)
never change
nat said y'all're friends and i was trying to throw you a party you'd actually want. have fun at. and like i said [...] i ain't trying to get in the way of anything even if it hu
castnetCourt SlaughterDate: 2024-11-26 05:25 am (UTC)
i legit cant tell if this is sarcasm or not at this point
well thank you, but also rest assured there's really nothing there to get in the way of. if anything, i feel bad for making things awkward between the two of you.
halliganprince arlo rattray 🔧 prescottDate: 2024-11-26 11:39 am (UTC)
it ain't.
i WAS a lil jealous and i THOUGHT it was cause y'all were messing around but i stewed over it some and it's cause i didn't know y'all're friends at all but other folk did. so i got in my head about what else's going on in your stuff that i dunno about. like it's one thing to miss [...] intimacy but i miss my best friend more. i don't wanna feel like strangers again
can we go back to what we were last time. in between marriages. cause i miss you being my person that way and idk if i can do it without y
okay, good thing i have no plans to better myself as a person - this is what u get, universe
full disclosure: the reason I started talking to John was indeed a game of drunken spin the bottle and so yeah, there's [...] that, but have since discussed how we're more interested in having a friend rather than pursuing, well, anything else.
i should have said something, but was afraid of it turning into something weird, but in not saying anything only made things much weirder and... i'm sorry for that, arlo. i think i was trying to protect you in some way, but went about it in completely the wrong way.
okay. i really dont like feeling like strangers, so my bad for anything ive done, inadvertently or not, to push you away while I tried to find my head. i miss my best friend too. what if we just end up hurting each other again though and
halliganprince arlo rattray 🔧 prescottDate: 2024-11-26 11:46 pm (UTC)
i'm over bein protected if it means i get left out of stuff. like when i thought y'all were doing shit, i started wondering if every time he asked me about me it was cause i'm your ex and not cause he [...] wanted to know about me. like if i gotta wonder every time somebody seems like they might be my friend someday, if they're just trying to get info cause you caught their eye. it made me feel like a fuckin teenager again tbh i didn't like it
[...]
wait then who were you trottin off to see in the middle of the night
Edited (LA and i discussed that he'd know i'm not infomodding!) Date: 2024-11-26 11:59 pm (UTC)
castnetCourt SlaughterDate: 2024-11-27 05:03 am (UTC)
okay, putting this first as otherwise it seems like an afterthought. super duper full disclosure that I didn't think we were going to go into the details of but I'm trying to be transparent here: i was visiting john, but [...] we're not fucking. id like to think there is a BIT of nuance between making out iwth someone and fucking them. and sometimes it is just nice to sleep next to someone else, if im being pathetically honest. if you really want details they can be had but rather figured you'd be fine on the whole timeline...
i hadn't considered that at all, but could see how itd feel like some warped revisit of your earlier years [...] i know ive hurt you before, but id never so maliciously do so as betty or dallas did. and to answer your questions you kinda asked, I think john really does just like learning about other people's experiences.
if we're really going to go back to the old days, who do I need to start wingmanning for YOU????
halliganprince arlo rattray 🔧 prescottDate: 2024-11-27 05:51 am (UTC)
[...]sleeping together kinda changes the whole "no we're just friends" thingthat ain't pathetic it's literally yeah no there ain't nothing i can say to that that won't sound like i'm trying to start another fight so i'm just gonna drop it. i wasn't looking for all the details but like [...]how many layers of disclosure's[...] whatever
you won't but everybody ain't you. is there anybody else i gotta watch my "vibes" around.
didn't we have a whole convo about my limp charisma dick like 5 days ago??? that ain't changed. idk how to do shit anymore there ain't nobody and besides the truck barely fits me there's no more room if i'm bein pathetically honest
halliganprince arlo rattray 🔧 prescottDate: 2024-11-27 12:13 pm (UTC)
[...] no i'm pretty sure i was being a dick just then. i'm sorry c
i should've said thanks for letting me know and [...] i'm glad you got a friend you can [...] rely on right now. [...] those're in short su[...] good. he's important to you i'll try not to be weird at him
and yeah it'd be cool if i could find somebody to hang out with like that but [...] i think my brain got all fucked up and i ain't much for this brave new world where i wanna. hang out with somebody i can actually talk with. instead of just have a good time with. cause idk how to go about that anymore so like it's easier to just [...] not try or something, cause i'm real good at making folks' lives more trouble than it's probably worth
at least we know we're forever great at being dicks to each other? you're fine, i should have just laid everything out if I was going to bring it up at all [...] instead of trying to ease into all [...] that. so I'm also sorry lo
you're more important to me too, so lmk if he does try any weird stuff with you as ive nothing against setting someone a friend straight, if needs be.
im sorry i broke you so badly all of that is completely understandable, but have to call bullshit on that last bit. you're real good at making people's lives easier-- better and being one of the most dependable motherfuckers still standing.
halliganprince arlo rattray 🔧 prescottDate: 2024-11-27 05:05 pm (UTC)
yeah next time let's just put everything on the table and go "look here's what the fuck's up"
he ain't done that. just had questions about how i fight more than your average bear that made me second guess everything when i found out it wasn't just a tea n biscuits kinda friendship.
ok well how about i say it like [...] figuring out how to get what i needwant[...] need's out of my wheelhouse and i don't wanna hurt anybody trying to figure myself out. i already hurt you enough and now i made shit complicated with john i don't want to bowl over anybody else's life just cause i'm lonely and i never learned how to deal with that good
[...] i know were having a serious conversation, but im sorry, how long did it take you to come up with "tea & biscuits kinda friendship"? apparently you picked up my poetry vice when I set it down? okay, ill stop
you'll figure yourself out, lo. we've got nothing but time, and you don't have to go it alone. i know it doesnt necessarily feel that way, but [...] you're stuck with me until you tell me to fuck off.
halliganprince arlo rattray 🔧 prescottDate: 2024-11-27 10:34 pm (UTC)
5 mins or so
and i love you c but we're talkin about a role not you or duke're fit for, it hits different. every time either of you says i ain't alone it feels like it's driving my point in m
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halligan prince arlo rattray 🔧 prescott
DM, 11/24
[...] are you really saying I completely misread this entire thing?
DM, 11/24
like you never even said y'all were buddies and i made sure i didn't bring it up so
did duke saywhy. and why now
and why hDM, 11/24
[...] after everything cant we please just be honest and open for once instead of having to play this game of a thousand doors?
DM, 11/24
???. we even been over the whole "that's why i don't sleep in the bunkhouse" deal. i'm trying to do stuff right, sorry if my vibes were off when i wasn't totally comfortable but i can't act how you want at folks you never mentioned cause of stuff we never talked about in the first placeDM, 11/24
fuckingelse?why did you invite him if you thought we were fucking around?
[...] you don't need to apologize for anything, arlo [...] I probably should
DM, 11/24
nat said y'all're friends and i was trying to throw you a party you'd actually want. have fun at. and like i said [...] i ain't trying to get in the way of anything
even if it huit's fine
DM, 11/24
well thank you, but also rest assured there's really nothing there to get in the way of. if anything, i feel bad for making things awkward between the two of you.
you say that butokayDM, 11/24
i WAS a lil jealous and i THOUGHT it was cause y'all were messing around but i stewed over it some and it's cause i didn't know y'all're friends at all but other folk did. so i got in my head about what else's going on in your stuff that i dunno about. like it's one thing to miss [...] intimacy but i miss my best friend more. i don't wanna feel like strangers again
can we go back to what we were last time. in between marriages. cause i miss you being my person that way
and idk if i can do it without yDM, 11/24
full disclosure: the reason I started talking to John was indeed a game of drunken spin the bottle and so yeah, there's [...] that, but have since discussed how we're more interested in having a friend rather than pursuing, well, anything else.
i should have said something, but was afraid of it turning into something weird, but in not saying anything only made things much weirder and... i'm sorry for that, arlo. i think i was trying to protect you in some way, but went about it in completely the wrong way.
okay. i really dont like feeling like strangers, so my bad for anything ive done, inadvertently or not, to push you away while I tried to find my head. i miss my best friend too.
what if we just end up hurting each other again though andDM, 11/24
[...]
wait then who were you trottin off to see in the middle of the night
DM, 11/24
i hadn't considered that at all, but could see how itd feel like some warped revisit of your earlier years [...] i know ive hurt you before, but id never so maliciously do so as betty or dallas did. and to answer your questions you kinda asked, I think john really does just like learning about other people's experiences.
if we're really going to go back to the old days, who do I need to start wingmanning for YOU????
DM, 11/24
sleeping together kinda changes the whole "no we're just friends" thingthat ain't pathetic it's literallyyeah no there ain't nothing i can say to that that won't sound like i'm trying to start another fight so i'm just gonna drop it. i wasn't looking for all the details but like [...]how many layers of disclosure's[...] whateveryou won't but everybody ain't you. is there anybody else i gotta watch my "vibes" around.
didn't we have a whole convo about my limp charisma dick like 5 days ago??? that ain't changed. idk how to do shit anymore there ain't nobody and besides the truck barely fits me there's no more room if i'm bein pathetically honest
DM, 11/24
apologies things didnt automatically progress from point a to point b??fucking A++ slaughterokayeveryonenone of your businessnofair enough. valid
[...] im not trying to come off as petulant, simply for the first time in my life have realized i need to shut my fucjing mouth
DM, 11/24
i should've said thanks for letting me know and [...] i'm glad you got a friend you can [...] rely on right now. [...] those're
in short su[...] good. he's important to you i'll try not to be weird at himand yeah it'd be cool if i could find somebody to hang out with like that but [...] i think my brain got all fucked up and i ain't much for this brave new world where i wanna. hang out with somebody i can actually talk with. instead of just have a good time with. cause idk how to go about that anymore so like it's easier to just [...] not try or something, cause i'm real good at making folks' lives more trouble than it's probably worth
DM, 11/24
you're
moreimportant to me too, so lmk if he does try any weird stuff with you as ive nothing against settingsomeonea friend straight, if needs be.im sorry i broke you so badlyall of that is completely understandable, but have to call bullshit on that last bit. you're real good at making people's lives easier-- better and being one of the most dependable motherfuckers still standing.DM, 11/24
he ain't done that. just had questions about how i fight more than your average bear that made me second guess everything when i found out it wasn't just a tea n biscuits kinda friendship.
ok well how about i say it like [...] figuring out how to get what i
needwant[...] need's out of my wheelhouse and i don't wanna hurt anybody trying to figure myself out. i already hurt you enough and now i made shit complicated with john i don't want to bowl over anybody else's life just cause i'm lonely and i never learned how to deal with that goodDM, 11/24
[...] i know were having a serious conversation, but im sorry, how long did it take you to come up with "tea & biscuits kinda friendship"? apparently you picked up my poetry vice when I set it down? okay, ill stop
you'll figure yourself out, lo. we've got nothing but time, and you don't have to go it alone. i know it doesnt necessarily feel that way, but [...] you're stuck with me until you tell me to fuck off.
DM, 11/24
and i love you c but we're talkin about a role not you or duke're fit for, it hits different.
every time either of you says i ain't alone it feels like it's driving my point in m